an angel, growing up && moving on™

It’s bothering how I flip out sometimes, it’s been awhile since I’ve cried my heart out, but I guess, when you just have had enough and words can’t even explain things you are feeling at the moment, you have nothing else to do but let out a really heartbreaking cry.

Where sobs turns into a painful chest pain and uncontrollable gasp for air that would sooner than later knock you out of your senses due to lack of air. And when you wake up, your eyes are just too sore to open up and your throat hurts like hell because of the dryness of the previous incident that took place. And at times like this you wonder, how are you able to survive, and how a simple action can lead you to your final destination.

After getting back to my senses, the first thing I did was to text my mom and express words that I have long to tell her, then I realized how short life is as well.

This are just random thoughts, I am not sure if they actually connected with each other, but the heck. This is me being random.

(Source: kristineaov)

Real Life Drama

Being an intern has taught me more than what I’ve actually imagined, no, it’s not the technicalities that I learn from the four walls of the class room, but what is really happening in the real world. I admit that I am somewhat disappointed, because I am not able to maximize my skills or learn something to enhance my knowledge at least. But then realization about how life works, are just too appealing to pass.

For the past 200++ hours that I’ve been doing my internship, I came to see life’s simplest rules that I used to ignore. Like how 5-10minutes late can affect your output for the day. How, an issue can affect your view of the company and perspective on how it works. How you must let go of something, no matter how important that something is, so you could achieve something bigger. And how, restraining yourself and limiting yourself to what you think you can only do, will affect your possible growth.

In this life, there is nothing permanent but change. Changes happen every day, every hour, every minute even, but the effect of these changes will depend on your view of all these and more. I often see things negatively but then I came to realize that doing so won’t help me. I would not be able to understand myself better, I won’t be able to maximize my capabilities, enhance my skills and grow.

Life is a stage and we are all actors, we have our own roles, but the director of the show is also our own selves. My show is just starting, am not even on the Rising Action, so just watch and wait on how my story unfolds. 

(Source: kristineaov)